Lowest

It's the way I never fail to become vulnerable to things like these. Do I ever learn my lessons? Apparently, I am no good at that either. So then what am I ever good for? So hopeless. Pitiful.

But it's okay; eventually I would have hurt too much for too many times to let myself down like that again. Eventually, I will grow cold-hearted, just like you; whether or not you will even be there in the end.

... I was having a perfectly good day too, damn it. A Friday that I have been waiting all week to spend time with my boyfriend, my puppies and friends. Leave it to my brain-dead logic to spoil it all.

Ugh, I sicken myself sometimes. I need to work on that. It's exhausting.

It'll get better, I hope,

mj

P.S. 11:11pm <3