I'm heavy like sugar,

My eyes are puffy tonight, again.

No words come to mind, to describe my state of affairs at the moment. Too many emotions. And soon enough, this will all pass too.

All I want is to be myself. And not feel like I have to explain myself. And never feel sorry for who I am.

That is all,

mj

P.S. And for Shinjie to live forever with me.

Girl, put your records on -

It's one of those days I'm totally feelin' good about myself. What for? No reason at all. Mmmm :)

I'm about to change into something ridiculously comfortable, put on some feel-good music, and totally immerse myself in this rare state of mind*

Wonderful day to you and yours,

mj

Elephants...Teeth Sinking Into Heart

Rachael Yamagata's new album is finally released! Despite some of the bad reviews I've read, I actually love her voice a lot in her new album, her stories even more so. I'll have to scribble her down on my wish list for Christmas :)

Christmas?! Holy shiza. It is only October. Only October; yet the year has already wound down and we're well into the last quarter of the year 2008. I sense a year reflection blog coming up soon. As soon as I get a spare minute after my round of midterm exams.

Halloween this year falls on a Friday. My boyfriend and I have set the date down for an outing with all three of our puppies. I just finished shopping today for Shinjie's outfit, myriad of variety of candies, and little Halloween decors. Getting in the spirit, yo. I hope the weather will be as marvelous as last year's.

Phone is ringing,

Ring ring,

mj

Wait up, girl.

When did you become so boring and so ordinary?

Wake up,

mj

Don't forget to breathe -

Do puffer fish puffer up because/when they detect threat? I haven't done any researching of my own on that, I was just curious.

My eyes puff up like stupid when I squeeze a tear or two out. Okay, maybe more than that, but still. I always crack myself up when I wake up the next morning and find myself staring at the monstrosity that is me. What a mess I am.

I had a good weekend. A lazy good weekend. Perhaps too lazy, considering my week ahead is filled with three examinations. But it was worth it. I'll remind myself of all the fond moments that made up my past weekend when I'm busting my bum to catch up on studying that I missed out.

Random thought: I need a haircut desperately.

Another random thought: I love my mom. A whole lotta love.

Uber tired,

mj

Insecurity sucks.

mj