I can't -

I can't wait.

We'll vanish together.

I can hardly wait.

I'm happily looking forward to the future for the first time in a while.

<3.

mj

Wake UP.

I don't understand why you're still caught up in the ways that you are. It sickens me to the core.

You're no god, you're not perfect. In the end, you're just another face in the crowd.

Fuck.

mj

Early Birthday, Early Thanksgiving, Early Christmas

=)

Wonderful times were to be had this past weekend with family and friends. Love them all with all of my heart. <3

I am the luckiest girl alive,

mj

Christmas Time is Near <3

Have you been good this year?

mj

Armistice Day

Thank You - to the heroes all over the world, big and small.

With gratitude,

mj

Color me,

Happy November! :)

I've much to write on here about what's been going on with my life, but it seems I must make better use of my time today.

Tomorrow is a big day for Americans. Wish I could vote, but it remains that I am still an alien. I just hope that all the new & young voters make well-informed decisions at the ballot tomorrow, and really take each candidate's proposals into consideration.

I thought it was quite humorous when I ran into these signs put up by the McCain/Palin campaigners on campus :p I told my boyfriend about them, and he had asked me to take pictures for him.

Vote, it's the right thing to do,

mj

I'm heavy like sugar,

My eyes are puffy tonight, again.

No words come to mind, to describe my state of affairs at the moment. Too many emotions. And soon enough, this will all pass too.

All I want is to be myself. And not feel like I have to explain myself. And never feel sorry for who I am.

That is all,

mj

P.S. And for Shinjie to live forever with me.

Girl, put your records on -

It's one of those days I'm totally feelin' good about myself. What for? No reason at all. Mmmm :)

I'm about to change into something ridiculously comfortable, put on some feel-good music, and totally immerse myself in this rare state of mind*

Wonderful day to you and yours,

mj

Elephants...Teeth Sinking Into Heart

Rachael Yamagata's new album is finally released! Despite some of the bad reviews I've read, I actually love her voice a lot in her new album, her stories even more so. I'll have to scribble her down on my wish list for Christmas :)

Christmas?! Holy shiza. It is only October. Only October; yet the year has already wound down and we're well into the last quarter of the year 2008. I sense a year reflection blog coming up soon. As soon as I get a spare minute after my round of midterm exams.

Halloween this year falls on a Friday. My boyfriend and I have set the date down for an outing with all three of our puppies. I just finished shopping today for Shinjie's outfit, myriad of variety of candies, and little Halloween decors. Getting in the spirit, yo. I hope the weather will be as marvelous as last year's.

Phone is ringing,

Ring ring,

mj

Wait up, girl.

When did you become so boring and so ordinary?

Wake up,

mj

Don't forget to breathe -

Do puffer fish puffer up because/when they detect threat? I haven't done any researching of my own on that, I was just curious.

My eyes puff up like stupid when I squeeze a tear or two out. Okay, maybe more than that, but still. I always crack myself up when I wake up the next morning and find myself staring at the monstrosity that is me. What a mess I am.

I had a good weekend. A lazy good weekend. Perhaps too lazy, considering my week ahead is filled with three examinations. But it was worth it. I'll remind myself of all the fond moments that made up my past weekend when I'm busting my bum to catch up on studying that I missed out.

Random thought: I need a haircut desperately.

Another random thought: I love my mom. A whole lotta love.

Uber tired,

mj

Insecurity sucks.

mj

Ahmunna eat choo

Ouchie, my arms and shoulders. They ache!

Happy Monday,

mj

Air in my lungs .

:)

The weather has been so superb these days. My friend and I were just talking about how gorgeous the days have been recently, and how good weather always puts her in a great mood. And I totally believe it too; it's hard to let anything get in the way or make you frown when the sky is as blue as can be and the autumn breeze never ceases.

I had a really, really awful exam for one of my classes today. I've never been so upset at the exam itself. I couldn't believe it when the professor called for time. My friends and I walked out of the room, cursing at the world, totally infuriated by what I can safely call *the worst testing experience*, evvver. It totally bummed me out because I've been keeping up with the class material pretty diligently, and to have just blown away all that effort for what seemed to me like the most ridonkulous, the most unfair exam ever was just discouraging.

But this weather, man. It was so lovely today, plus I sure as hell didn't want to sit through another lecture, so it was hard to keep being miserable and mad at the world. So I played hookie and grabbed the biggest slice of pizza and sat around outside with the girls, hehe. It's got to be one of my favorite guilty pleasures; skipping class and porking out, major time.

My boyfriend came into town today! We grabbed our longboards and our puppies and drove to school. It was nice and cool, just perfect for an easy night of riding our boards around campus and working up our poor pups. What a stress reliever that was. A brief stop in front of my school's very much under-appreciated fountain was the peak of the night, I'd say. There weren't any stars out tonight, though it brought some really fond memories back from my freshman and sophomore years :')

Ahh, and there's the sweet end to my long day. TGIF tomorrow <3

Woot woot,

mj

*

If I am your number one,

and you were the number zero,

our love would be a fraction

because it is undefinable and forever infinite

I really love my boyfriend, I really do =)

La di da,

mj

Sunshine Child,

Nyam nyam - my afternoon nap today was soOoo lovely :) Waking up at 5:30am every other day for a dang 7:30am philosophy class is definitely taking a toll on my body. And I've fallen into the vicious cycle of driving home like a speed racer everyday (most of the times, I don't even remember the drive home), throwing my 30lb nerdpack at the foot of my desk, swooping my puppy off the ground, and plunging us into the uber softness of my comforters -- ahh, dear bed, I've missed you. [sigh]

Hmmm. We've been having some fine weather; plenty of sunshine and just as plenty of rain. I never get too far with my studying (after an excellent napping session, of course), only to find myself changing into a T-shirt and shorts and make my way out the door with Shinjie. She enjoys my random spurts of outdoorsy-ness as much as I love it. We'd walk to the nearest field of soft grass and run around chasing each other until we tire ourselves  and collapse underneath a patch of shade somewhere, out of breath 

from laughing and running. People walking by us probably scratch their heads at our oddity and debate whether or not we should be reported. [shrug]

Mm, I really wish I had some popsicles in the fridge right now. This craving will bother me for the rest of the night, arg :B

With all the sillyness of my life aside, it seems I'm pulling through this semester. I've stayed on top of all my classes and managed to get As on every exam so far. It's still early into the semester to tell, but I'd like to keep the promise to myself and work my way towards 4.0 gpa. It's possible, and I know I have a chance at it. So... I'd better get off my lazy bum bum and get to it :p

Tomorrow @ 9pm, catch David Blaine on ABC!

Good day,

mj

Friends for 13 Years :)

My friend is visiting me from Virginia over Thanksgiving break this year. She and I have been friends since we were in elementary school, back in Daejon, Korea. After my family moved here to the States in '98, I never thought I would be able to keep in touch with any of my childhood friends. Luckily for me, when she decided to attend William and Mary as an international student, we'd finally made contact through the wonderful world of Facebook =) We'll get to see each other after more than 10 years apart, it's crazy.

-

On a side note,

My boyfriend and I met David Blaine this past weekend! He filmed a crazy bullet stunt at the local shooting range that my boy and I frequently visit almost every weekend. Pictures, autographs, hugs, handshakes. It was a once in a lifetime kind of deal. It was sweet.

His segment of the show will air this Wednesday, September 24th 9pm-11pm on ABC. 

Be there,

mj

You looka lika man!

No, but I sound like one though!

I hate being sick! Please cure me?

Please?

mj

Wake me up when September ends -

Seriously. I do not want to be awake this month. 

It's been too much of an exhaustion. I hate to say this but I'm really not strong enough to handle so much heart-wringing. Does that even make sense? [sigh] I've never felt so ugly in my life. I'm sure people around me can probably smell the ugly, the sad on me.

But as much as I loathe that I've been waking up with puffed-up red eyes every morning, there isn't anywhere else I'd rather be but home. I just need a mental break, that's all. 

No more snotting & no more tear marks, please.

Thanks,

mj

9.13

Happy Birthday, mommy.

I love you with all my heart.

All my love to you,

mj<3

I don't lie -

Period.

mj

Biting off more than I can chew -

Yeah, that's how I feel. And quite truthfully, it's very unsettling.

School work already is quite burdensome, and with taking on a part-time employment as an instructor at Kaplan -- I barely have time to take a breather. Now I'm in the process of applying for a membership in a co-ed health-related professional fraternity at UCF. Boy, sometimes I don't even know where to begin with my day.

Ugh, but I'm already being a procrastinator! I gotta hold this thought for another day of blogging and get to my application essays.

It's already a full week and some odd days into the new month of September, but I still feel like the month has just begun. So Happy month of September!

Ciao,

mj

While you were sleeping -

- I figured out everything.

I was constructed for you

and you were molded for me.

Now I feel your name

coursin' through my veins.

You shine so bright, it's insane

you put the sun to shame.

I'm very lucky and much loved for who I am.

I am infinitely grateful for that, and forever happy :)

Love love love,

mj

Lowest

It's the way I never fail to become vulnerable to things like these. Do I ever learn my lessons? Apparently, I am no good at that either. So then what am I ever good for? So hopeless. Pitiful.

But it's okay; eventually I would have hurt too much for too many times to let myself down like that again. Eventually, I will grow cold-hearted, just like you; whether or not you will even be there in the end.

... I was having a perfectly good day too, damn it. A Friday that I have been waiting all week to spend time with my boyfriend, my puppies and friends. Leave it to my brain-dead logic to spoil it all.

Ugh, I sicken myself sometimes. I need to work on that. It's exhausting.

It'll get better, I hope,

mj

P.S. 11:11pm <3

Powered by caffeine,

Self, remind yourself never to drink a whole can of soda before bedtime ever again. -_-

[sigh]

A rush of sugar, caffeine, whatever it is -- I blame it for keeping me from getting my much-needed sleep for the rest of the week. I have to wake up at 5:30am tomorrow morning, for dumb sake! But I find that being cracked up on soda didn't turn out all that bad, after all. I got to clean out all the mess on my desk, drawers, bed. I even cleaned out my laptop's hard-drive and organized all my folders. Granted, these things were all due for some real attention real soon anyway...

Okay, so it is past 1am. I will punch and knock myself out to sleep or something.

P.S. Blood drive tomorrow! :)

.<3

The upcoming 18th of this month is my 1.5 year anniversary with my boyfriend :) It's a little more special this month because the timing worked out pretty well.

* Every 18th of each month, we celebrate our "monthsary." Nothing fancy, of course. But even just acknowledging how far we've come together as a couple is, I think, meaningful and worthwhile.

* September 18th, 2008 = 18 monthsary. Ha, it's cute! *:)

* Even better than anything else, he'll physically be in town to celebrate in person. Usually, he's forced to stay and finish out his work week up in Jacksonville. It turns out the date falls on a Thursday, which is the day he always drives back down to be home!

I will have gotten through three of my exams by the time Thursday rolls around, and a lot will be off my chest. Less stress, less moodyness, less anxiety. And more boyfriend time! More more more! It's amazing how much we've endured for each other, and I'm thankful beyond words to have been blessed with a loving soul that is my babe to share some of the best days of my life with. And may these beautiful days never cease! :)

Oh dear, I am in such a happy dopey la-di-da mood now. Perhaps if this mood persists throughout the night, it will deter me away from being stressed with the disgusting load of schoolwork I have yet to finish. Okies, back to the books!

With love,

mj

Hold on to this one,

Aiya. I couldn't stand the older blog because there were so many posts that were of complaining/bitching nature, so I deleted it. I've moved on from the venting and the ranting of trivial things in life that I won't even remember in week or two.

So here I am with a brand new blog under my name, that will accompany me throughout this semester and beyond [hopefully].

There is much to be said about all the exciting things going on in the present. However, I have a class at 7:30am tomorrow which means I must wake at an ungodly hour where the moon and the stars are still out across the night sky. The storytelling will take place at another time :)

Signing out,

mj<3